||[11 Dec 2005|02:34am]
haha, it's been a while since i wrote in this damn thing. Alright, so college is okay I guess. I can definitely understand those people who hate the experience. but anyways, i had this whole list to write down, but it's 2:30 in the morning, so yea, the brain isn't functioning as well as it should. one thing is for sure: college is definitely not what i expected. more on this later.
||[18 Jul 2005|12:37am]
I just had this sudden urge to feel wanted or something. I feel like I want to help with someone's problems, help them with anything and everything. But alas, I am not able to. I'm kind of like that untapped source or friendship that many people fail to realize it's there. And I guess, that's how it's supposed to be? But this is also just an offer for an ear that will listen to anything, for all you hip livejournalers out there.
||[22 Jun 2005|01:01pm]
is it just me or does no one read my lj anymore?
||[11 Jun 2005|09:41am]
how have i affected you?
|These are the best days of our lives...
||[07 Jun 2005|08:15pm]
To the Class of 2005 Prom: thank you for all the memories that I will cherish forever.
As you can see, prom was amazing. From Friday evening at Laura Diduch's to Monday at 4 in the afternoon around the circle in front of my building, I've made many fond memories. I got to dress in a mandarin style tuxedo like i always wanted, and Erica, of course, was gorgeous in her pink dress. Laura's house was quite amusing, and I got to see everyone all dressed up for the first time that night. It was too bad my group wasn't able to ride the trolley to prom. The Crystal Plaza will contain our dancing silhouettes forever. I danced the night away, and I wouldn't change a thing.
The shore- well, one quick note and motto - "what happens down the shore, stays at the shore". Wise words to live by. Much thanks to Daphny for allowing Erica and me to sleep over her cousins' house. And damnit I wanted to watch the Incredibles! Oh well. The Seaside Heights boardwalk was a blast. Basically we were there for the food - at least for me. The zeppoles, the cheese fries, the candy, you know the drill. The beach was oh so fun, even though the water was freezing. My close to all of this rocked anyone else's - White Castle. WOOT
The Group - Kaeli, Dana, Laura, Krystyna, James, Rachel, Joran, Boneli, Daphny, Aryan, Erica, and me - OUR GROUP ROCKED MORE THAN ANY OTHER GROUP.
Today was the Dorney Park trip. Not much to mention, a bunch of rides, lots of food, hangin' out with Ryan, Eddie and Dustin. Again, my group rocked. And of course, I have to mention winning 110 army men with the tickets from that pinball-launching machine.
Overall, senior year has been ausome. Thanks to all for the memories that I will hold close to my heart. But avas, it's not over yet. CAMP WARWICK TOMORROW! WHAT WHAAT?????!!?!?!
ilu erica/bakelperson/wonder girl (obvs!)
||[11 May 2005|08:05pm]
The Keys to Your Heart
You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.
In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved.
You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.
You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.
Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.
Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.
You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.
In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.
||[06 May 2005|10:15am]
I HATE life in wayne. I hate this house. I hate my mom for being a bitch. I hate my dad for being stupid at times. I hate this town, for all of the selfish, overly paid biggots. I fucking can't wait to leave. I can't wait for all of this to finally end. I can't for school to end because frankly, I have better things to do than sit through 9 classes learning next to nothing. I can't wait to leave this house and finally be able to breathe. I can't wait to come up for air for the first time in 18 years. I've been suffocating under this roof. Only God knows how much I hate it here. And all of this trouble because I lost a calculator. I can't afford a calculator, because of my financial status. I vital and necessary tool for school, and I can't afford it. And how did this start off? Because some fucking low-life faggot had to go through my backpack in the track locker room. I hope that it's larry sisco. If it is, he deserves to burn in hell, that sack of shit. If assumptions and accusations hold true, then he has stolen over 500 dollars in cash, along with petty things like pocket change, not to mention my fucking 130 dollar calculator. I come home to tell my only mother that i've made a mistake, that I lost the calculator that has been in my posession for less than a week. And what does she do? She blows up in my face. And to think that I was going to have some leisure time before track practice. I thought wrong.
||[05 May 2005|10:08pm]
| Your brain: 140% interpersonal, 100% visual, 60% verbal, and 100% mathematical!|
| Congratulations on being 400% smart! Actually, on my test, everyone is. The above score breaks down what kind of thinking you most enjoy doing. A score above 100% means you use that kind of thinking more than average, and a score below 100% means you use it less. It says nothing about how good you are at any one, just how interested you are in each, relatively. A substantial difference in scores between two people means, conclusively, that they are different kinds of thinkers.|
Matching Summary: Each of us has different tastes. Still, I offer the following advice, which I think is obvious:
- Don't date someone if your interpersonal percentages differ by more than 80%.
- Don't be friends with someone if your verbal percentages differ by more than 100%.
- Don't have sex with someone if their math percentage is over 200%.
| My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:|
|You scored higher than 92% on interpersonal|
|You scored higher than 74% on visual|
|You scored higher than 70% on verbal|
|You scored higher than 72% on mathematical|
||[20 Apr 2005|08:25pm]
|Your dating personality profile:|
Religious - Faith matters to you. It is the foundation that you build your life upon. You trust that God has a plan for you.
Athletic - Physical fitness is one of your priorities. You find the time to work athletic pursuits into your schedule. You enjoy being active.
Shy - You are often timid around others, though you will open up when the right person comes along.
|Your date match profile:|
Athletic - You aren't looking for a couch potato. You seek someone who is active and who keeps her body in top shape.
Religious - You seek someone who is grounded in faith and who possesses religious values. You believe that a religious person can enhance your life.
Romantic - You need someone with a traditional understanding of romance. A true romantic is a must-have in any potential date.
Your Top Ten Traits
Your Top Ten Match Traits
Take the Online Dating Personality Quiz at Dating Diversions
|well, would you look at that.
||[26 Mar 2005|09:41am]
[X] I am straight.
[X] I've consumed alcohol.
[ ] I've run away from home.
[X] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[ ] I don't like Bush because from what I hear, he is dumb.
[ ] I don't like Bush with my own reasons to back it up.
[X] I am for Bush.
[X] I listen to political music. Rage Against the Machine, anyone?
[ ] I collect comic books.
[X] I shut others out when I'm depressed.
[X] I open up to others easily.
[ ] I am keeping a secret from the world
[X] I watch the news.
[ ] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[ ] I own an iPod or MP3.
[X] I own something from Hot Topic.
[x] I love Disney Movies.
[x] I am a sucker for hair/eyes
[ ] I don't kill bugs.
[x] I curse regularly.
[X] I paid for a ring tone
[ ] I am a sports fanatic.
[X] I have "x"s in my screen name. BUT JUST 1!
[X] I've slipped out an "lol" in a real conversation.
[ ] I love Spam.
[ ] I bake well.
[X] I would wear pajamas to school.
[X] I own something from Abercrombie.
[ ] I have a job.
[ ] I love Martha Stewart.
[X] I am in love with love.
[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[X] I am self conscious.
[X] I like to laugh.
[ ] I smoke a pack a day.
[ ] I loved Perks of Being a Wallflower.
[ ] I loved Go Ask Alice.
[ ] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[ ] I can't swallow pills.
[ ] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem
[X] I eat fast food weekly.
[X] I have scars.
[X] I believe in ghosts.
[ ] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[ ] I am really ticklish.
[ ] I see a therapist.
[ ] I love white chocolate.
[ ] I bite my nails.
[X] I am comfortable with being me.
[X] I play video games.
[ ] I'm single
[X] I'm in a relationship
[X] I've been lost in my city.
[X] I've seen a shooting star
[X] I've been to another continent
[ ] Had a serious Surgery
[ ] Gone one out in public in my pajamas
[ ] Made out w/ a stranger
[X] Hugged a stranger
[X] Been in a fist fight
[ ] Been arrested.
[X] Pushed all the buttons on an elevator
[ ] Made out in an elevator
[X] Swore at your parents just my dad tho
[ ] Kicked a guy where it hurts
[X] Been in love
[ ] Been to a casino
[ ] Been skydiving
[ ] Broken a bone
[X] Skipped school
[ ] Flashed someone
[ ] Saw a therapist
[ ] Done the splits
[ ] Played spin the bottle
[X] Gotten stitches
[ ] Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour
[X] Bitten someone
[ ] Been to Niagara Falls
[X] Believe in a God
[X] Gotten the chicken pox
[ ] Kissed a member of the same sex
[ ] Crashed into a friend's car
[X] Been to Japan
[X] Ridden in a taxi
[ ] Been fired
[ ] Ever had a crush on someone of the same sex
[X] Had feelings for someone who didnt have them back
[ ] Stole something from your job
[ ] Gone on a blind date
[X] Lied to a friend
[X] Had a crush on a teacher
[ ] Celebrated mardigras in New Orleans
[ ] Been to Europe
[ ] Slept with a co-worker
[ ] Been married
[ ] Gotten divorced
[ ] Had children
[ ] Saw someone dying
[ ] Been to Africa
[ ] Driven over 400 miles in one day
[X] Been to Canada
[ ] Been to Mexico
[X] Been on a plane
[ ] Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show
[ ] Thrown up in a bar
[XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX] Eaten Sushi
[X] Been snowboarding
[ ] Been Skiing
[X] Met someone in person from the internet
[ ] Been to a moto cross show
[ ] Lost a child
[ ] Gone to college
[ ] Graduated college
[ ] Done hard drugs
[X] Taken painkillers does tylenol count?
[ ] Had someone cheat on you
[X] Would have sex with one person on your lj friends list
[X] Would have sex with more than one person on your lj friends list
[ ]Would have sex with more than one person on your lj friends list at the same time
|"i might as well not even exist at this school, remember?"
||[24 Feb 2005|11:27pm]
Oh, how this quote holds such meaning and truth...
Have I even made a mark at Wayne Hills High School? Or the world, in general. Have I altered anything in any way? Have I achieved anything? I think not. I have not set any records. My name has never appeared in the paper. I've never gotten an award for being smart, athletic, or community savvy. No 800 club, no school record for fastest time for the _____-yard dash, no position of hierarchy. No nothing. So in essence, I can disappear, and yet, nothing would change. English class would be better off without an extra outcast. AP Language and Composition would be happier, since they wouldn't have to withstand the excruciating pains of listening to the atrocities I call essays. Anatomy and Biology would carry on, with no problem at all. The lunch table will have a little more room to fit others. Mr. Zambrano won't have to deal with an extra ignorant student. And statistics, well, McNutt's class will be a little quieter for the better. Coaches won't have to bother, because I would have nothing to offer. And well, you can take me out of this picture, since I only amount to a speck of dust that is just waiting to be wiped off.
wow i suck at life.
||[12 Feb 2005|09:29pm]
Who wants to go see Hitch with me tomorrow?????
||[05 Feb 2005|10:07pm]
THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
1. JKCha4pika (don't ask)
THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. my limited pool skills
2. me being able to carve on a snowboard
3. my (almost completely black, but brown in light) eyes
THREE THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. my left pinky
2. my habit of cracking my right thumb knuckle
3. my chubb
THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
1. 1/2 North Korean
2. 1/2 South Korean
THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. not succeeding
3. not being loved
THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. my compy
THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. american eagle t-shirt
2. glasses with no frames (representing my asian-ness)
3. state champion ring
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS OR MUSICAL ARTISTS (at the moment):
1. Frou Frou!!!
3. The Postal Service
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS (at the moment):
1. Old Piano
2. Girl Anachronism
3. Drop It Like It's Hot
THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS:
1. drive a new car
2. find a new significant other
3. GO TO COLLEGE!!!!!
THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP
1. unconditional love
TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE (in no particular order)
1. I eat glue
2. I heart Naruto
3. I'm a nigga at heart
THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX (or same) THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
THREE OF YOUR FAVOURITE HOBBIES:
3. dancing (b-boy)
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. play pool
3. get obscenely muscular
THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
1. biomedical engineer
2. car designer
THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
2. somewhere with ausome stargazing spots
3. some island with blue waters and white sand
THREE KIDS' NAMES:
THREE WAYS I AM STEREOTYPICALLY A BOY:
1. I love lifting weights
2. I want ass
3. I play(ed) football
THREE CELEB CRUSHES
1. Jun Ji Hyun (Korean actress)
2. Johnny Depp
3. Maria Sharapova
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. visit europe
2. go cross-country on a joyride
3. own a white tiger
THREE THINGS YOU WOULD DO IF YOU WON £6 MILLION ON THE LOTTERY
1. buy a peugeot
2. build a house on a peak of something (preferrably with an ocean view)
THREE PEOPLE WHO HAVE TO TAKE THIS QUIZ NOW
||[30 Jan 2005|06:18pm]
Other than the fact that I am not of higher class, nor have I yet fallen to a tragic end, I have realized my tragic flaw. I am not intelligent. I believe that is the root to all of my problems. I am unable to many things an intelligent person would be able to do. For example, I am not witty. I cannot have a conversation about the beginning of beings, or how a person can calculate pi to the billionth place. My vocabulary is limited, compared to the people that use tepid in replacement of lukewarm. This flaw is what makes me the wrong piece of a puzzle that shouldn't have been in the box in the first place. This is what makes me not belong. I am not of the smart group calibur, and I am unable to fit in with the rest of society, because I DO have an intelligent thought once in a while.
Even during football, I was one of three people that could have represented the "honors student" niche. (is that the right word?) Yet, I was not one of them. Nor was I able to fit in with the rest of the jocks and company. So what am I to do? Wait for my downfall, I guess...
||[23 Jan 2005|09:06pm]
Rest in Peace, Mr. Johnny Carson.
||[17 Jan 2005|09:36pm]
I will not be able to focus this week at all. Reason: I'M NOT GOING TO SCHOOL ON FRIDAY BECAUSE I'LL BE ON A ROAD TRIP TO BOSTON. I'll be checking out my new home for the next for years. Yes, I will finally be able to get away from it all. w00t. But the sad thing is that I won't be able to go snowboarding over the weekend and I won't be able to watch the second half of seven samurai in film club. what a bummer..... Anyways, back to "Death of a Salesman".